I’m not myself right now,
and that’s okay…
I can’t be “normal,” or “happy”
every single day.
I mean, I could try, but then on the flip –
you’d only ask me why.
I’m not me, currently –
But I’ll be fine.
I’m just warning you
not to waste my time.
The truth is,
I’m in a bad mood.
Because I’m entitled to those,
everything can’t always be hunky-dory,
I suppose.
I guess that today
is just one of those days
where I can’t get it right
no matter what anyone says.
And I don’t really care,
that feeling just isn’t “there”…
That pretending to feel something I don’t –
I’ve never been a good liar,
so I won’t.
I won’t smile, or laugh, or joke,
because I don’t have the desire to invoke
the mirth of those around me – how can I,
When [presently] I’m not even happy?
I’m not trying to be rude,
I just need time to brood.
I guess what I’m really trying to say,
is that I’m having a bad day.
Kayfucius 