Yesterday, I scrolled through my phone
looking for a number
because I thought I’d call someone for Father’s Day –
and then saw my grandma’s number
when I tapped on the contact;
Her face smiled back at me…
I wished I could really call her –
but I knew
that if anyone was on the other end,
it wouldn’t be her,
and that hurt so much
I forgot why I
picked up the phone
in the first place.
…I still can’t bring myself to delete her number.