I think I like most of the things about myself
that I say out loud I don’t –
I self-deprecate to deflect the attention
that part of me actually secretly desires but that I also
hope happens organically;
I haven’t figured out how to do that
so instead I just push it all away.
And I wish I could just…tell people this,
but so discouraged are we
from saying what we truly feel,
disconnected from ourselves
lost in the “perfection” we portray.
I think that not many hold space for vulnerability
because we also have trouble being vulnerable
with ourselves.