The end was never in sight
and now it’s here
though I accept all of life for what it is, with intention,
only part of me wishes that for once, this kind of happiness could have been a true thing.
I’ve been searching all my lifetimes and finally find it in this, my longest yet very last one,
only for it to never become…
I knew I’d have to do some of this alone for a while –
solitude is my best and oldest friend;
I just thought maybe for once in all these lives I’ve lived
for just once, I’d get the one thing I always wanted.
Now I understand. The path of least surrender
always bruises the heart
and fortifies the soul.
For me, for this journey;
Alone is not lonely, it is necessary.
I’m at peace with this, even despite how it’s already torn me into pieces.
Healing is the battle where more casualty than causality happen.