Kayfucius

A collective of thoughts, poetry, writing works, blurbs, and other randomosity

What is it, what is it,

what is it?

This…sensation I feel when

we interact?

Warm expansions in my chest

like an outward ripple effect

from my heart[beat]’s syncopations

that create an afterimage, an echo –

Heavenly sounds and chimes

ring deep within my ears

and spirit…

I always feel lighter, freer

tingling everywhere with sheer energy

from my very Crown to my Earth Star.

I see our energies blend

dancing a dance

older than the first rudimentary concepts

of time

as both measurement and memory.

Igniting fires that smolder deep

in the core of us;

Then you said, “I love you,”

so clearly, so intentionally, so…

easily.

I was so taken aback

I thought maybe you didn’t realize

what you’d said.

Except I said it back

“I love you, too…”

Why did I do that?

Why did it feel so…

so natural, so…easy,

like we’ve always said these words to each other

this way?

I felt warm and cold all over

shot through with electricity,

lightning bursts of light and flame

that make my chest warm

and my breathing erratic.

I felt our connection

form, deepen,

our bond become more intricate;

our souls further intertwining

as though we both realized

our destiny

[is] together –

Today – of all days,

is an 8 day

Infinity rules

elevation.

What is it?

What it could be, is…

maybe we’ve met our match

in each other.

Our potential is

an unlimited reservoir

of growth and evolution.

240522

I don’t even think about you

anymore;

You’re more a fleeting thought

or a passing memory these days;

And even scrolling past a picture of us

or you

doesn’t hit my heart as hard as it

once did –

Now I’m just…

grateful, and wish you the best.

My scars are healing

and the triggers are releasing

and all I want now these days,

for myself

and even for you,

is peace.

240522

I have questions

like how I felt so drawn to you

so immediately

when I swore I wanted to protect my heart?

Or how we vibe so well together

when we haven’t even

decided what this is yet?

Why are you showing up

in my dreams, making them more…intense

than they have to be?

Why do I smile so much

when you text me?

I have a few questions

but I haven’t found any of their answers;

Yet…

170522

No.

I thought you were different, and…

I thought we could be, too;

but just like all the others who ever

got [access] to my heart,

you brought triggers and damage –

even knowing the vulnerable spaces I’m in,

and the sore spots

I find myself ripping the scabs from

again and again

only to have to restart the healing process.

I’m tired of bleeding;

I should never ever

have trusted you

and now I know it’ll be a while before

I can trust anyone.

You just toyed with me like everyone else.

I can’t with this anymore.

Maybe it’s best if I just

never do this again.

041222

I won’t get attached to you;

I belong to no one.

Yes, our collision is fated,

I’m not sure

if the spiral will

be worth the aftermath –

but spirals turn in all

directions…

So who’s to say how this all goes?

I guess I won’t know

until I take a spin

myself.

040122

The Internet told me

it gets better with time

and

I want to feel this,

this…

better they speak of;

Seems like every time I’m close enough

to reach it, touch it, be it

it’s snatched away.

Or, maybe it runs…

Either way,

all I’ve ever known is pain, and confusion.

I just want to heal

and I’m tired of

this interference.

Please,

just let me be

free.

030622

Meditate, baby love…

Calm yourself.

Hydrate and remember that

this too shall pass.

You are neither martyr

nor victim;

Trust yourself and the Universe, and know that

your time is on the way

and your transformation is almost complete.

Yes, it’s true you’re not like the others

but that was never a bad thing;

Your feelings of inadequacy

and wounded heart

are necessary lessons [not burdens]

in owning your life and soul purpose.

Your dreams were never invalid;

Spirit just needed you to value yourself

the way the world already does.

You had to experience pain

to be sure you were ready for

the pleasure bound to your path.

Chaos and conflict always precede order

and your destiny is yet unwritten –

Just ride the waves of

challenge

and find yourself in healing

and love.

030422

Inner Peace

True wealth is the wealth of the soul

johncoyote

Poetry, story and real life. Once soldier, busnessman, grandfather and Poet.

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